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I’m a Professional Everything

I just got back from a two day girl’s trip to Sarasota, Florida. I’ll be writing about it soon and taking you all on a video tour. Before I get to that point, though, I might be found curled up in the fetal position sucking on my own toe for comfort (someone else’s toe would be disgusting). I don’t know yet whether my eyes will be wide open and staring off into some vague distance or squeezed shut to keep reality out.

You see, my problem is that I want to be a professional everything (at least everything that I love) and I love a lot of things. I decided for this trip that I wanted to make an awesome travel video. I watched countless hours of YouTube videos on how to make it happen. I took notes; I re-watched videos; I was determined; I was excited– now I’m home and there are what seems to be 500 video clips scattered between my camera and my phone. It may turn out to be dozens of man hours to go through them all, clip, edit and arrange with music. Am I ungrateful?

What makes matters worse for me is that I’m looking at the clips and they look nothing like the ones I envisioned myself having. Wtf? I’m a professional videographer. I’ve clocked in the YouTube hours to make it so. Why does some of this stuff look like it was created on my phone? Yes, much of it was, but it’s not supposed to look like it. And what is a professional videographer supposed to do when it’s high noon and there isn’t a single cloud in the sky and it’s so bright that I can’t even tell whether or not my camera is in focus as I pan the horizon? I should know these things. YouTube didn’t prepare me for that one.

You know how in the movies a woman will be in her house and the door bell will ring and she’ll answer it only to find that no one is there. And then someone will clear their throat and she’ll look down and find some kid trying to sell cookies? I’m the woman and that kid is my expectations. I was expecting it to be up here and it had to clear it’s throat and tell me to look down.

Have you ever felt like you would be way more successful at something only to end up staring at the half-formed product wondering where the hell you went wrong? It’s such a surreal feeling .

What’s important for me to keep in mind, what’s going to get me through the dark days ahead, is remembering that we all have to start somewhere. If I never pull out my camera to make videos, I’ll never go through the learning process and make improvements. I’ll have no material to study. I won’t learn which areas I’m strong in and which areas I suck at. It sucks to watch the suckiness, but it’s a necessary step for me to improve. Studying my own work instead of just the work of other people will be like having a tutor working one on one with me as opposed to sitting in a lecture hall of 200 people.Β When watching YouTube tutorials, concepts and practices will become less vague.

For example, I remember as a teacher telling my students that doing such and such on an essay wasn’t a great idea. Then I would assign them an essay and half of them would do that thing I said not to do and the other half would not do that thing I told them they should do. Then we’d review. In every student’s mind, they did what I had asked. Then I’d hand back the essays and be specific.

“Did you remember to do this,” I would ask. I’d get lots of head nodding.

“Look at your paper and highlight where you did it.”

Very few highlighters would move and looks of confusion would start sweeping across the faces of the students. They knew what they should do; they thought they had done it, and yet it was nowhere to be found. I think some of them would even check to make sure that they were holding the right paper.

My point is learning comes through action. We get better by doing stuff. It might be a long, dark, wet and rocky road. We may keep catching glimpses of others doing it well and making it look effortless, but remember that there’s no moving forward without moving.

Last year I went to Thailand with some friends and made this video which I split in two because of software limitations. I didn’t realize that I should always hold my phone horizontally to film, but I learned better for this time. Hopefully, when I add my next travel video to YouTube, it’ll be far better than this one. Whatever you’re striving to accomplish, just keep at it. Laugh and maybe shed a tear when it doesn’t meet your expectations, but keep taking action to get better.

Here we’ve got spicy food, Thailand New Year and an attempt at snorkeling with a bit of hyperventilating.

Here we have Maerim Elephant Sanctuary and more street food.

What’s a skill that you’re working on improving? Is it going as smoothly as you’ve hoped? Have you forgotten about it until just now? Let’s hear all about it!

My name is Lyz-Stephanie and I want to inspire you to be more connected to yourself and the world, to find beauty in simple pleasures, and to have more adventures. Every day we can do something to make our lives happier and richer, make our minds more active and engaged. I’m on the journey. Will you join me?

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28 thoughts on “I’m a Professional Everything

  1. I know those feelings! And OMG, holding one’s phone horizontally is something I keep having to remind myself.

    Oh, and when you clip those videos together, I think it’s going to end up a lot better than you expect. That won’t be a kid selling cookies. That’ll be a kid DELIVERING cookies you already paid for.

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  2. Color grading, editing, filming… Practice… Many times we don’t realize what all goes into really getting things to look professional. But you can do it!

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    1. Thanks hon, it definitely takes a ton of work, but I’ll keep working at it. One day I’ll be making epic videos. πŸ™‚

      On a different note, I have no clue why WordPress keeps leaving your comments for moderation after you’ve been a part of the IWBAL tribe for so long! I apologize on behalf of them. xo

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  3. Oh how I get this!! I have had to majorly work through the thing that so often holds me back: thinking I have to be perfect the first time I try something – or a professional everything like you said. Keep on trying new things and honing your craft (whichever craft that is in the moment is up to you), but most importantly, keep being you. You have such a fresh voice, and everything you do sparkles because you’re doing things that you love, and your personality shines through. You’ll get to the level to which you aspire, and you’ll certainly learn a lot along the way. I can’t wait to see the Sarasota videos!

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    1. You’ve made me so happy to read this, Viv, and I’m sending you a hug for it. I have to remember that the process is part of the fun, especially when it starts to feel overwhelming. Thanks so much for the encouragement. I’m filing this comment into my instant happiness folder. πŸ™‚

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      1. That is exactly what I want to remind youβ€”enjoy the process, not the outcome! It’s the journey that brings joy. The fantastic part is that because your journey involves outputs of things (like blog posts and videos) you have a great repository of reasons to celebrate progress! I totally needed this reminder myself today thank you!

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        1. I am so behind on responding to my comments. I apologize, Kris. You’re so right about having output gives me a repository of reasons to celebrate progress. Seeing concrete things that show my progress is pretty cool. Good luck in your endeavors!

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    1. It was so gorgeous, Milly. We went for 10 days and I still feel like we only got to see a very small part of everything they have to see. When you go, try and put aside as much time as possible to take it in (unless you’re rich and can afford to go back multiple times, then just ignore me).

      The elephants are freaking adorable. The babies and teenager elephants were just like big puppies, so playful and affectionate. You’re going to love it!

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  4. A Renaissance woman pursuing a multitude of magnificent passions. Multiple curiosities. It is hard to hone in given how many interesting things are out there. The skill I’m working with is writing. Taking up a blog this month has given me a track to follow and, like you, I’m reminding myself that the process is part of the progress. I look forward to looking back and being able to see the growth I’m sure it happening, it’s just often hard to see while I’m i the middle of it. Thanks for sharing your journey.

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    1. Hey Cindy! You’re so right, it’s hard to hone in when there are so many interesting thing out there. I’m still holding on to the hope that cloning will come through for me. But yes, the process involves a lot of learning (which I love) and although it can be stressful, is always worth it. Writing is my lifelong passion. Starting a blog is a great way to work on your craft, get feedback, and just share what you love. Here’s to writing!

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  5. Considering that I started from scratch with cake designing and was completely self taught… I know this way too well. Man I’ve cried and suffered over cake lol I’ve never been so determined about anything like this art- other than keeping the kids alive you know?! I’ve had some ROUGH times- but kept pushing. I’m still pushing and I’m still learning and expanding my creativity but it’s not easy! I agree with you so much! You can’t give up you have to dive heart-deep into the thing and watch yourself and your craft evolve. It will be magic once you pass the fetal position stages!! You’re so talented- and like you, I have all these interests and I want to be a PRO AT THEM ALL!!! Lol πŸ˜‚ I recently fell in love with web design but man- to find the TIME is my challenge. Thanks for yet another inspiring post!

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    1. You’ve been doing a freaking awesome job. I have no clue how you manage a full time job and all the cakes you crank out. From my tears to yours, it’s totally worth doing what we love and seeing where it takes us. Your designs are so are cool and varied. Finding time– there’s the rub. I’d just love to go to a school full-time that just catered to everything I want to learn, no matter how disconnected. Branding is one of my favorite parts of marketing, so I totally get how you’d be interested in web design. I’ve got tons of ideas for my website, just need some resources to make it happen. May have to hire you for the job πŸ˜‰ Tech is scary to me, but I love what it can create. I love creative people. πŸ’œπŸ˜

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      1. Creative souls are the best of humans. And I also wish such a school existed! You know I didn’t graduate with my degree because I CHANGED MY MAJOR SO MANY TIMES, they literally basically like kicked me out lmfao I ended up
        With over 350 college credits. Majored in: literature, chemistry, teaching, math, English/creative writing, Psychology, business… I can go
        On forever LOL I wasn’t meant for college I think. Or for this planet. So I FEEEEEEL YOU!!!! Lol πŸ˜†

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        1. This makes me love you more πŸ’œ Getting kicked out for loving too many things is like the best thing ever. You’re the female Van Wilder! Freaking awesome. Let’s make a school: Undecided University.

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